We’ve sailed down this river without Jeanette for a year and half. It seems like a long time and a short time, depending on how we set our sights. Along the way, we’ve adjusted our sails through a multitude of meandering turns, we’ve endured formidable rapids, and we’ve foundered in fog for seemingly endless days. At the moment, a smooth calm has settled in. For how long is unknown, but it’s a moment for reflection. As I scan the banks of this river I ask, where are we now?
We are adjusting. Like it or not, the course of the river runs through this sector. What else can we do, but adjust? We’ve had our share of temper tantrums and pity parties. We’ve cried our buckets of tears. And, oh yes, the tears and temper tantrums and pity parties will come and go. This isn’t life as we wanted it nor life as we expected it. But, we adjust. We’re getting used to her not being with us. Getting used to it? To say it like that makes it sound so simple, so easy. Hardly that! No! Easy, it ain’t! But, we are adjusting.
The course of the river has brought us to a new way of life. We search for new meaning and new purpose. We search for good. We find good, because we’re looking for it. We find good, because God is good. Our trust and faith and hope and confidence is in Him, even more unshakable and more firm than ever. Why? Because we know God didn’t do this, nor did God stand idly by and do nothing. Life is about choices. Sometimes we make wise choices, and sometimes we don’t. God isn’t to blame for that. Blame? Who says we have to place blame? We accept what is, glean from it, make the best of it, adjust our course, and go on.
One thing is sure, and it’s tried and true. God is with us on this journey. He’s been with us through the meandering turns, formidable rapids, and fog. He’s collected our tears, and held us through our tantrums and pity parties. He comforts and strengthens our hearts, and He directs our course as onward we sail.
Sara Faith Nelson
Sharing the journey, because, I find there are so many others making the trek through life without a loved one